1// Am I actually going through with this? You know when you think about doing something and when you actually do it, you don’t quite believe it. That was how I felt.
2// Fuck, it’s expensive! The Givenchy Antigona is an expensive bag – but so is every other designer handbag. It’s a lot of money at once and especially for a student.
3// Do I really want to spend my money on this? Whilst putting my information down I was thinking about all the things I could do with the money instead of buying a bag.
4// Think of all the MAC lipsticks I could buy with this money! Imagine buying all the MAC lipsticks and having a display exactly like in the store. That could be possible if I didn’t spend my money on designer handbags.
5// I don’t deserve this. The bag was a gift from me to me. Just because I felt like I deserved it at the time, but when I actually had to buy the bag I didn’t think like I had done enough to deserve such a beautiful bag.
6// What will my boyfriend say? When I told him about buying it he thought it was a good idea, but when he heard the price he had a tiny heart attack. I told him that I wasn’t sure that I would buy it but after a while I did and I was so scared to tell me. Let me tell you that he didn’t react great.
7// What will my mom say? My mom doesn’t share my passion for designer items. At all. So when I thought about telling her about the bag, I felt kinda sick. And yes, I still haven’t told her.
8// I could travel for these money. If there’s some I love more than anything then it’s traveling. It makes me feel so happy and free and I could have taken a long vacation for the money.
9// Am I getting the right size? I was really in doubt about the size. One second I wanted the medium and the next I wanted the mini. Such a struggle. I went for the medium and I’m in love with it!
10// Shit, I actually did it! When I got the confirmation mail I was so happy and relieved. I actually did it. I didn’t back out or anything. I spent my well saved money on something that I had dreamed of for years.